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The double life
How a preacher can stand in authority on Sunday and sit in bondage by night, and why the gap between the two is where shame grows teeth.
The memoir
Lord, How Did I Fall So Far?
A true story of addiction, grace, and a God that never gives up on you.
Pastor Mark Miller, Sr. spent years telling other people that God could deliver them. He believed it. He preached it. And he was privately losing a battle no one in the sanctuary knew about.
This book is the record of that fall: how far a called man can drift while still looking faithful, what the hidden life costs a family and a church, and how God met him when the performance finally collapsed. It is for anyone who has ever felt too far gone to come back.
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Foreword by Bishop Yvonne M. Harrison
Inside the story
Not a highlight reel. A confession that became a calling.
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What it cost
The fall was not private for long. Mark writes about the people who paid for his secrecy, and the grief of watching trust break in real time.
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The God who stayed
Grace did not wait for him to get impressive again. The book traces the slow, unglamorous work of a God who refuses to give up on His own.
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A door for the reader
This is not a story you watch from a safe seat. It is an invitation to stop hiding, tell the truth, and let restoration start where you actually are.
Broken. Lost. Called. Restored.
A journey from darkness to purpose, written so you do not have to walk yours alone.
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